getting personal

i have dealt with a lot of loss in my life in the last year. that was one of the reasons i started this blog. i thought to myself: “if i can think of just one nice thing a week that inspires me, even if it’s as trivial as a cute pair of boots and write about it, i will be able to get through all this.”

but part of the deal with that was, i didn’t want it to get TOO personal, i wanted it to be about things that meant something to me but could also mean something to anyone who read it. that meant no real names, no place names, not a lot of disclosure about yours truly. i did livejournal and myspace blogs and stuff for a long time and found that it just gets too incestuous or you do something stupid like you’re feeling maudlin one night so you post some bad poetry you wrote or people read something you wrote (like your bad poetry) and it gets messy, it’s like waking up with a tequila hangover.

however, i feel like almost all of what i am going through is universal. and as much as some of it hurts, it also, in a way, inspires me. it makes me want to push forward and do more things, honor those i love that have passed and be excited about my life, because they would want me to and because that’s just the way of things.

you probably know what that feels like.

so i am planning on posting some blogs about two of my most recent losses and how they inspire me, both in the frivolous ways that a lot of this blog talks about and in other ways as well.

there will be lots and lots more movies, ballerinas, fashionistas, amazing cities, boots, coats and the color grey on this blog, don’t sweat it, but if there is a small break from your regular broadcasting, i hope you’ll forgive me.

and better yet, share some stories of your own.